After a long moment in time, as I worked on a project that stretched beyond the boundaries. A piece of work that encompassed the diversity of the passing of time, I began to crave the minute details in reaction to the amount of energy i put into the representation of the "whole". I wanted to concentrate on the little elements that made up the whole and it didn't matter if the detail was complete or relative to the moment, what was important was that it existed without any burdens of connection. It stood on it's own in a free floating reality that related to it's own elements. So this yearning manifested in making more dolls!!!! The Doll itself is a created universe that holds references to parts of our physical world but does not abide by any of its rules. The energy that i give each creation is a moment of meditation for me. A moment of quieting my forever processing mind and being alone with a "familiar" which is similar to saying I am able to be alone with myself.
This instinct is externally present as well with the moon in Scorpio and the collective pull to work through pain by isolating and shutting out the big picture. This instinct to allow the pain of whatever concept of abandonment I may feel from childhood all the way to the nature of the relationships I attract in my adult life, to just move through me without judgement or attachment to the reasons why. This microcosm of my emotional life is a valuable moment for me. This moment that feels crazy and infinite is just a passing moment in time. A moment that carries with it the core essence of its conception and continues to carry it away out of my universe. The release of past pain and guilt is necessary to receive anything new energetically.
From this place I can create a new universe. Assign new meaning to relationship. Isolate the import elements and discard the dirty unnecessary fear based addictions to the self. Remembering this power, is unstable and uncomfortable. There are no promises and comfortable conclusions, but there is the definite knowledge that after all the chaos seeps out with the tears and fractured thought, there is the the Truth and it will remain.
